Harness the untapped power in your shadow
Lead, Love and Serve with an unleashed heart.
A 4-month immersion for evolutionary souls
Dissolve the hidden forces that cause you to abandon your Self and keep you from unleashing your heart.
The reasons behind why you self sabotage, why you feel stuck, confused, unfulfilled, unable to love or heal, hijacked by your shadow material, triggers or reactivity, afraid of your power and light... can all be summarized in one word:
FRAGMENTATION
We sabotage ourselves because our will and intent are fragmented. A part of us deeply desires our goals, yet other aspects of us may feel threatened by what it takes to get there or what consequences may unfold.
We experience resistance when we are fragmented. Parts of us that we haven't reconciled with yet pull us back from the shadow. Meanwhile we often beat ourselves up because of it. Sounds familiar?
We feel lost and confused when there is fragmentation or disconnection from our inner guidance or intuition.
The reality is that our psyche is often scattered in multiple parts... Fragmented.
And that is the reason why we feel disconnected from our power and the ability to powerfully create the life we desire.
Fragmentation is one of our most potent survival mechanisms. When we are in survival it allows us to cope with pain that we don't know yet how to transmute.
Fragmentation is what keeps us from harnessing the spiritual stamina it takes to anchor deep and meaningful change in our lives.
IT IS ALSO PRECISELY ONE OF THE REASONS WHY WE DO NOT THRIVE.
You are only as liberated as you are integrated.
This is your invitation to embrace your own reclamation.
Here is the myth...
For the most part, we have bought into the illusion that we need to get rid of aspects of ourselves in order to move to our next level of fulfilment.
We've bought into the illusion that if you can only think positively all the time, you will create the life you desire.
If you can just separate yourself from what is negative or dysfunctional within, you will create positive experiences.
We have created a deep aversion to our pain. We run from our resistance. We repress our fears. We refuse to be present with the parts of us that are hurting...
We are only willing to accept ourselves when we feel in touch with spirit, joyous, grounded... and we reject ourselves when we are not.
We despise our resistance and what we perceive as self sabotage etc.
But here is the deal...
The parts of you that you are not able to love, RUN YOU! They hijack you in the dark.
What you repress within yourself will find distorted ways to express itself until you are able to love it... And that is what FREES you!
That's why I said that you are only as liberated as you are integrated.
Your power resides in your ability to reclaim your wholeness.
And this is your invitation to join me on that sacred journey.
The earth is ushering this new paradigm through us. This is something I firmly believe.
Hi there, I'm Xavier
I am a Shadow integration facilitator, psychospiritual guide, Transformational Coach, writer and teacher. I feel alive the most when I help Lightworkers, thought leaders and creatives, release the hidden forces that stand in the way of their ability to Lead, Love and Serve from the heart, not their wounds.
I am not a big fan of talking about myself, but if you're going to consider joining a 4 month + journey, I think it would only be fair to want to know a bit more about the facilitator.
Let me start by saying that the work I do today did not come easy to me.
I have behind me a trail of failed endeavors and unhealthy patterns that I've learned how to transcend.
I dropped my Ph.D. in economics in 2013 after what felt like a dark night of the ego (and I've had many since then). I then seriously committed to my inner work.
I knew what I wanted to do with my life (the work I do today) but didn't have the spiritual stamina to fully claim it.
The wounds from my past, patterns of self abandonment, self sabotage and feeling like an imposter were too loud.
I created many "shadow careers" as beautiful distractions. I've been a health coach, fitness trainer, gym owner, network marketer, a chef.... the list goes on.
I've eventually had to learn what I call the technology of surrender. To me it's the sacred practice of letting your heart and your light call the shots in your life.
What I share in INTEGRATE is more than just intellectual material. It is what I had to practice in order to heal old wounds, recalibrate patterns, lead, love and serve from the heart.
I have seen over and over how transformative a container becomes when it's infused with the intention to witness people fully (both shadow and light): profound transformation emerges.
This is the intention that is at the core of INTEGRATE...
What previous participants have to say...
Mary Cheyne
- Public Speaker, Trainer & Coach.
As someone who's been deep-diving into inner work for over 20 years, INTEGRATE is a unique journey. My consciousness level and self confidence has increased tenfold (at least) since INTEGRATE. I'm much more effective at serving my own clients, show up much more authentically & powerfully in my life. It's a fulfilling feeling of "coming home" to my true self. I highly recommend this program. I am forever changed by it, both from a deep understanding of myself and from a spiritual alignment experience. Thank you Xavier.
Adele Van Der Lecq
- Trauma informed coach, Chicago, Il
My time in INTEGRATE has been a journey of shadow work, inner child work, inner parenting, awakening to my shadow and embracing awareness, acceptance and compassion. This is a huge thank you to Xavier for guiding me. My heart is open and healing has been immense. As a facilitator of healing myself, I can only support others to the extent that I have healed or evolved. We went deep in Xavier's INTEGRATE program. It's a journey that has forever changed my life and the way I show up for myself and others.
Shannon Collier
- Grief counsellor, Washington DC
INTEGRATE is bigger than any one participant’s challenges or hopes - it is a model for healing the world in which we live. Integrate helped me face the shame I feel in being human at all and transformed that sense of shame into more compassion and humor for myself and my human experience. Plus, the depth of connection with group-members was unmatched. It feels good to be more authentically connected and respectfully intimate with myself and others. Highly recommend working with Xavier.
The world is ready for the light you usually hide in the dark. It's time to reclaim your golden shadow
One of the highest invitations of these times is to get you to awaken your golden shadow...
If you were asked why you are doing all this work on yourself, what would your answer be?
Is it just so that you can get rid of pain and discomfort in your life? Or is there a greater purpose behind the work of integration?
Deep down we all have a brightness that wasn't necessarily nurtured. Light seeking its way out.
A brightness that often scares us because we fear that allowing it to be expressed may expose us to ridicule, humiliation, persecution and more...
That Golden Shadow, the light we often keep in the dark... it wants to be reclaimed. The earth is ready for that light... your light.
If you think that repressing your pain is heavy, try repressing your light. It often causes what I like to think of as spiritual inflammation. It is one of the most painful forms of self abandonment.
When we frustrate our highest personal truth, the body tends to pay the price.
INTEGRATE is a journey of inner activation of your Golden Shadow. It is an initiation so that you may embody it more fully.
Integrate is NOT for you if...
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You still find comfort in fragmentation and self abandonment. No judgement here, I have been working with thousands and I know the level of dedication it takes to disrupt these patterns. Please do not apply if you are not that committed yet.
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You are not yet willing to embrace a sobering level of radical honesty with yourself and response-ability.
- You are looking for a quick fix or a "savior"... INTEGRATE is a deep dive and an invitation to reclaim all the power you externalized.
Integrate is for you if...
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Hiding who you truly are and disowning your light has become more painful than risking to be fully seen.
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You are no longer willing to let your pain and your fears have authority over what you create and how you show up in the world.
- You are ready to surrender even more to your fullness, to let your light call the shots in your life and to Lead, Love and Serve from your heart, not your wounds.
A signature process designed to get you unstuck...
This container has been designed with at its core, what I call the medicine wheel of integration. I call it the C.L.E.A.R. process.
I've seen this framework transform the lives of hundreds of people that I've coached 1:1 and this framework is weaved into all the modules of INTEGRATE.
Spoke #1
CLEANSE the vessel
Resolve emotional conflicts that hold you back, release the hurt from the past and the perception biases it created. Withdraw your power from your fears.
Spoke #2
LIFT the anchors
Illuminate and integrate the shadow aspects that hijack you in the dark. Resolve resistance and what appears like self sabotage. Reconcile your inner polarities.
Spoke #3
EMBODY your golden shadow
Become intimate with the light you learned to keep in the dark in order to feel safe. Embrace the gifts that even people who loved you most didn't know how to nurture.
Spoke #4
ATTUNE to your highest values
Recalibrate your life according to YOUR highest values and not dissonant ideas of who you've been told you should be. Reclaim authority and authorship of your life. Write the script.
Spoke #5
RE-MEMBER your light
Build a conscious relationship with your light. Anchor safety in the full expression of your joy gifts. Become a disciple and devotee of your light. Surrender to your highest personal truth and let your light call the shots.
What you receive...
1. 16 Live group zoom calls with Teaching, Group coaching, Guided meditations and Q&A (2.5 - 3 hours each), led by Xavier
2. (12) modules on the INTEGRATE online portal and lifetime access to content and updates
3. Weekly aligned assignments & accountability
4. Online private community to foster connection, integration and to practice being seen in your highest personal truth
5. Lifetime access to all the content (Coaching calls recordings, online modules and more)
6. Option to add on a private 1:1 coaching and mentoring session at a discounted rate to dive deeper into meaningful areas of integration in your life.
7. 3 weeks of intentional integration (1 after every bloc of 4 weekly calls)
Exclusive bonuses
Lifetime access to The Embodied Light Project (ELP) membership community.
($1699 Value)
A community of like-hearted seekers that have your back and nurture your light. More about ELP HERE
INNER ALCHEMY FOUNDATIONS COURSE
($299 value)
Master your inner world, resolve your emotional conflicts, illuminate and integrate your repressed parts.
This is a unique opportunity, this course is not available anywhere else.
WORKSHOPS BUNDLE
($599 value)
- Awaken your golden shadow (Part 1 @ 2)
- Awakening heart-centered anger
- The alchemy of self abandonment.
- The alchemy of resistance
** FOR PAY IN FULL AND ULTIMATE EXPERIENCE ONLY **
01 Extra 90 min 1:1 mentoring session with Xavier
($699 value)
Dive deeper on topics and teachings that are uniquely meaningful to you so that you can accelerate your transformation and integration.
** FOR ULTIMATE EXPERIENCE PARTICIPANTS ONLY (ONLY 2 SPOTS AVAILABLE) **
Get a unique opportunity for a 3-month 1:1 mentorship w/ Xavier post INTEGRATE
($9997 value)
Join me on a deep spiritual 1:1 workout to get unstuck and consolidate the transformation that INTEGRATE will ignite.
“Xavier has been the most profound human I’ve worked with on my journey. His ability to truly uphold a safe container that invited parts of myself I was scared to bring to the surface has helped me transition out of a 10 year depression, Xavier is a pivotal force that I will forever be grateful for.“
- Adam Partridge, Producer & Mixing engineer
“Xavier is a master coach who very often was able to read between the lines of my best attempts at self expression and to find a nugget of wisdom inside of it, giving me the tools and encouragement to integrate aspects of myself I didn't even know where there. Working with Xavier has completely shifted the way I relate to myself, my loved ones, and my work.“
-Peter Fam, Human rights lawyer.
Modules and Schedule...
Here is the entire schedule for the live calls.
The entire experience will be divided in four groups of four weeks, with an integration week in between.
All calls will happen at 10am ET | 7am PT on Sundays.
Live calls #1 - #4:
December 2024 (Sunday's) - 1st, 8th, 15th, 22nd
- INTEGRATION WEEK -
Live calls #5 - #8:
January 2025 (Sunday's) - 5th, 12th, 19th, 26th
- INTEGRATION WEEK -
Live calls #9 - #12:
February 2025 (Sunday's) - 9th, 16th, 23rd, & March 2nd
- INTEGRATION WEEK -
Live calls #13 - #16:
March 2025 (Sunday's) - 16th, 23rd, 30th, & April 6th
Module 1
- A reclamation of disowned desires
- Resolving emotional conflicts
- Reclaiming your spiritual stamina
Module 2
- Dissolving self abandonment
- Bridging our inner polarity
- Illuminating shadow material
Module 3
- Releasing the grip of mother/father shadows and wounding
- Breaking up with the shoulds of your conditioning
Module 4
- Harnessing the wisdom from your past
- Embracing the golden shadow of your darkest wounds
Module 5
- Breaking free from survival archetypes
- Reclaiming response-ability
Module 6
- Rebalancing your feminine blueprint
- Mastering the art of receivership
Module 7
- Rebalancing your masculine blueprint
- Taking a stand for your highest personal truth
- Infusing your life with new direction
Module 8
- Building a new foundation
- Awakening your inner parent
- Unleashing the power of your open heart.
Module 9
- Awakening our power archetypes
- Deepening self liberation
- Alchemizing self abandonment
Module 10
- Awakening your golden shadow
- Reclaiming the light we keep in the dark
- Embracing your repressed power
Module 11
- Relational alchemy
- Attuning your relationships to your renewed self
- Toward deepened intimacy and connection
Module 12
- Living at the speed of your highest truth.
- Let your light and you open heart call the shots.
- Becoming unapologetically expressed
Morgan Leigh Callison
- Artist & soul alchemist, Nova Scotia, Canada
As someone who has spent years learning how to love and honour myself more deeply, Integrate showed me some of the most insidiously negative and harmful beliefs I still held about myself that have been blocking me from living more fully from a heart centred space. I was able to see more clearly where I was still leading my life and leaning into relationships from a very hurt and wounded place. The compassion I have been able to conjure up for myself thanks to the beautiful support of Xavier, his team, and the entire group of participants is leading me more fully into living as the love filled beautiful human that I came onto this earth as, innocent, free, and full of joyful spirit.
Jessie Williams
- Founder & CEO of Edge or Urge, Raleigh, North Carolina
Integrate is not a program for those looking for a quick fix. It is an opportunity to put on your scuba gear and dive deep into those dark unexplored areas. I did walk away with a wealth of knowledge and actionable steps to continue doing the work. I have never felt more attuned to my own body, needs and desires. I am able to more easily recognize patterns and call myself out when I’m getting off track in a much more compassionate way. Integrate helped me get more comfortable stepping into my power and leading from a place of sovereignty instead of fear. Added bonus: I made some very valuable lifelong connections & I would not trade them for the world!
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Nancy Estcourt
- Somerset, UK
I feel very lucky to have worked with Xavier! His generosity and huge Spirit are a true gift to the world. Shadow work is the most important work we can do at this time in humanity’s journey and I’m so grateful to have been taken on that journey into my shadows with someone experienced, unafraid and with such a deep understanding of what the shadow is and how to navigate the sometimes uncomfortable process of integrating it. If you commit and give even half as much to the process of integration that Xavier gives, you will come away with a toolbox full of genuinely helpful tools to use everyday.
Caroline Edwards
- Jersey city, New Jersey
I have been doing work on myself for many years but nothing quite like this. It has helped me tremendously. I felt stuck with several emotional conflicts, I also wanted to move forward with writing my book but found it extremely difficult yet had no real reason why, except I was just probably lazy. I now have better practices of how to care for myself and have essentially "hacked" my way into my own progress. I no longer subscribe to destination thinking but instead welcome new opportunities to evolve into the person my inner child dreamed of.
Tiffany Crane
- Ottawa, Ontario
Xavier is the safest presence I have ever experienced. From our first conversation, I opened up to him with an ease and trust I have never experienced before. I saw so many aspects of myself reflected in the other women in the group, which gave me more insight into my own shadows. I have learned to speak more honestly to my family about my feelings, boundaries and needs. I can navigate intense emotions on my own and self-regulate using the tools I've learned. Xavier has helped me shed layers of deep sadness, shame and anger, and build more trust and compassion for myself. He is a true blessing in my life.
